Friday, June 4, 2010

the graduation blog entry. you knew it was coming.

wow, graduation weekend. when did this come upon us? it seems like we've been leading up to this point in our lives for years and years, but now it seems like it came in an instant. time is a funny thing. it goes by so slowly, but is gone so fast. i'd love to think of some awesome philosophical analogy or something, but i got nothing. its too hard to explain how i see and interact with time, so i'll leave it alone in favor of not sounding like a babbling idiot.

this summer coming up is going to be amazing. maybe i'm an optimist, but i dont see how it cant be awesome when THERE IS NO BAND. sorry for any younglings that read this, if there are any, who happen to be in band... yeah. sucks for you guys. its an awesome feeling to hear about all the initiations going on, graduation band, freshman camp next week, talks of fourth of july parade, and then put all that with your complete and total non-association with it all as a band student, and its like taking a 30 pound weight out of your backpack. i could go skip or something. uh, no homo? but yeah, no band. wow. an unfamiliar concept. on a similar note (lol), it'd be great if i knew the school song for graduation so i could sing along. stupid band. i'll hum it.

but yeah, gonna be an awesome summer. i'm definitely making new friends..... like, the weekend of graduation. its rather sad, that i'm just now making some awesome friends that are going away in a few months. like, 2. or 3 tops. it would have been awesome to be doing this like, at the end of last summer, or even the end of last year. but all the same, i'm glad i'm not going to have a boring summer.

friends are funny that way, don't you think? as we change and grow, our friends do the same. its not very often you find friends that have been best friends since kindergarten and are still best friends now that we're graduating. people just... change. friend groups changed when we went to middle school, and drastically changed when high school came along. more people, more diversity, more groups, more change. now we're going off to college. its the opposite now. before it was ok, because we were joining with other schools. no one had to say goodbye. now we're done mixing with others, and instead all heading separate ways. this is a completely new concept. sure, there's facebook. sure, we'll come back for homecoming - well, some of us - or during fall break or at christmas. we'll see each other at tom thumb when mom sends us up to get some eggnog or whatever, we'll say hi, maybe even have a 5 minute conversation... but our real friends will change.

sorry if i'm killing this real friends thing in my blog, but its a big deal to me. we're going to college. if you're not coming with me, we won't stay awesomely cool and perfect friends. sorry. we can stay friends, but it wont be easy and we wont be besties. we're heading different directions, and for the first time, i mean it totally literally as well as figuratively. plus, when we get to college, we're going to make friends that didn't go to coppell. crazy concept, huh? my life is going to fill up fast. new school, new friends, new schedule. its a lot to take in, and it isn't going to slow down.

this right now will be the past. what is now, wont be then. i hope i stay friends with the people i am friends with now, but i can't promise anything. all of this "you'd better visit" or "i'm gonna come see you!" stuff... well of course we say that now... we dont have anyone else to be with. but as soon as life goes from point A to point B, we'll find that Skype is our new best friend and thats really all the time we can make for our old high school buddies. thats all we're going to be to each other, to be blunt and realistic. old high school buddies. friends from back in my hometown. friends from my last life. it won't be the here and now, and our relationship will change accordingly.

does this mean i hate you? no.
does this mean i dont care about you or your feelings? no.
it means life is changing, time is unstoppable, and the inevitable is just that. we cant stop all this from happening. i hope it doesnt destroy what we have, but it will in part, and there's no way to stop it.

the bright side? there's a bright side? oh yes, there is. we still have right now. we still have this summer. it's going to be awesome, and i don't want the looming move-in date that is constantly hanging over the summer to be a downer. don't worry about what's going to happen to our friendship in 3 months. lets be friends now, just like always, and end on a good note. a good memory to end this stage of our life will mean the world to me and will stay in my mind a long time. the same goes for bad last impressions. if we get in a huge fight right before we go to college and rarely see each other in person for the rest of our lives, that's exactly how i'm going to remember you - that person i got in a fight with the summer of my senior year of high school.

so for now, lets be friends, lets forget time is fleeting, and lets not fight. later we can worry about fitting each other into our busy lives, but for now all we have is each other, so lets not lose sight of that.

summer should be a good time.
summer will be a good time.
happy graduation, my fellow classmates.

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